at last, in words

screw it when people said to find the sunshine behind those gloomy days, i have no time to find mine. i've decided that i'm taking my time. and i'm taking what's mine.


screw you for thinking i'm too friggin sensitive, i have no time to please you anymore nor the time to put your disheveled mind at ease. you're still kampung minded despite all your clothes, makeups and 2carat diamond jewelleries.


you talk like you know everything, you keep quiet and people thought it was cool or something when the truth is you talk rubbish and you shut yourself when you don't really know how to pronounce the English.


you were once nothing, perhaps now you are something, but it seems you're forgetting who you are where you came from what's your inner believes, and it turned out you are turning yourself into one of those stuck up bitch.

Yeah, I'm a Latebloomer.

....so?

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Boredomeness

Not being ungrateful but the superlong holidays are just a superlong holidays.


I'm bored as hell here. My daily routine would be just quite the same every single day since it started.

Wake up for subuh. Sleep again. Wake up at noon. Mandi, munch something, watch tv, online and online, zohor, asar, then workout for 30 mins like hell, then mandi, magrib, watch tv again, and online some more, sims 3-ing, then do some reading in the bed, can't barely sleep at all from 12 to 6 am because i'm starving myself and the bed is not comfy enough and i hear eerie noises coming from nowhere. And it all goes around again and again. Not that i can't go out or anything, I'm just too lazy to explain to dad the purpose i'm goin out and get my butt out to the car start the engine and go socialize. I'm just tired of making the effort i guess. And some more, since the holiday, no one from the college circle called me or anything so i guess they wanna have their time doing something else. Haaa, emo me starts to ramble already.


Haaahh, i'm just doing a lot of thinking lately. About everything. The drama in the family that's actually kinda stupid to have currently. The neverending thoughts of having friends that my innerbelieves didn't quite approve of, and i'm struggling to find the benefits of the friendship rather than realizing the negativity that have been stamped across my face all these while. The boyfriend that is very serious in including me in his future plan, that's good right? The course I'm now taking and thinking where exactly this would bring me in my long term career later on. And just what kind of person i'm going to turn into in terms of moral value and religious view. Gahh.


And how i remembered early last semester when Ikin said how she wanted to just focus on herself and care less of others just because she's plain tired with everyone. And now i totally get it. :)


And the same thinking occur quite alot on this matter lately as i'm just so tired of pleasing everyone that i have no time to please myself. Thank you, Ikin.


Hmmmm, can't wait for the family holidays. Yeayy.

Right now..

keeping it all hush and quiet.

I'm just simply sick and tired of how she had turned out to become.
Ugh, kang tulis kat sini semua terasa, menyampahhhhhhhh

Al-fatihah.

I'm not his student, I never even talked to him before. I was always there in 102 classes that I saw him, and admired him based on what people talk about.

He's nice, he's fun, the way he talks is soooo good i like, he's sarcastic, he's handsome, he's cute, etc etc this is what i heard most of the time. And yes, he has the character and the face that you'd remember and think of.


To learn the news that he passed away this morning kinda shocked me as well tho he has never gave me much impact towards my life, but still shocking enough that anyone could just leave. And never come back.


I'm speechless for a second reading Ms Norma's status in fb and still speechless now that i decided that by writing i could really express how i'm feeling.

I felt sadness creeping down my throat, i felt aghast at how one day you're up and going and the next day you're just dead.


You will always be remembered Mr Harris. Al-fatihah.

Today's News

I'm at the point where I treadmilled for 30 minutes and then smiled. Yes, I enjoy working out at the moment. Not everyone capable of doing so, I must say. Hehehe.

iAM fat.

Dah dapat terima hakikat yang sedang gemuk, sedang obesiti, tak boleh dah nak fit size XS/S, tak boleh dah nak penuhi cita-cita pakai skinny jeans kerana betis dan peha yang tembam sangat, dan sesungguhnya kelihatan hodoh di setiap angle. Yes, I'm in my mourning point at the moment.

This is perhaps all Erwen's fault. Haha, nak salahkan orang lain pula. For he had made my life oh so happy in these past few months, I felt like eating all those mouth-watering foods with him all the time. djasdasdPKDASMDA,dlada/.

Tetapi tetapi, 3 bulan yang ada ini, misi mencantikkan diri akan diteruskan. Dengan harapan I'll drop the excess fats and extra kilos down the drain and in vain hope that I'll be very lean and slim. Tinggi sungguh cita-cita ini. But who are you to judge, as you girls or boys are just the equivalent as I am. We all wanted to be beautiful inside out. More out than in, I guess. That's how superficial we are indeed. Heh, there's no need to deny, dear people.

p/s; mari mari diet minum teh hijau berlari atas treadmill hari-hari. -_-'

Rejok Shop

Satu yang pergi, beribu datang ke mari.




Malas nak menulis lah lately, bukan tiada bahan cuma sedang sibuk. Sibuk kuruskan diri. Haha.

-_____-' Not funny, Noreen. Not funny at all. Blergh.

And, busy keeping up with the drama in the family. Penat ha la ni.



p/s; Congrats Izdikoni! Dapat pun si dia di hati. Hehehehee

I love you, Russel. Seriously I do.